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"A person who dreams for a very long time
becomes similar to his or her dreams"

So.. from my previous update, I mentioned that I went for an interview right? I actually got the job. So I went down to the agency to sign my contract before heading to work on that day. My first day of work was already quite bad. It was so bad that I regretted why I applied for the job. But since it is only my first day, I thought to myself that it is actually normal for me to feel this way. I decided to just continue with it. However, it just got worse and worse every day.

"매일매일 하루하루 내겐 그저 지옥같아!"
"Every single day by day, it's like hell to me!"

I am forcing myself to wake up and drag myself to work every single day. Every thing is just so damn freaking complicated. I tried my best to remember what my mentor taught me but it was difficult for me to remember everything. The thing I hated the most is when some of the customers were so rude to me. I know it is normal to face this kind of customers sometimes but still....

One of them even told me in a very irritated tone... "You are a trainee right? Go and learn more before you come out and serve lah. You better not make any mistakes ok!!!!" He repeated the "better not make any mistakes" like for a few times. After hearing that, I felt like crying. My tears were already on my eyes and I am trying not to show it out. Yes, I am a trainee, so what? I am still trying to learn right. Who doesn't make mistakes? I am trying my best and being so polite to that person but he just have to be so rude to me. I am not trying to blame that person or whatever. I just can't understand how come there's this kind of people on earth. So damn freaking rude. You think it is so easy to learn everything in just a few days? If you are so smart, why don't you come and try doing it yourself? You talk to me like as if you are so damn good and all. So what if you are freaking rich? It does not give you the rights to be so rude to me. I will forever remember this... After that person left, my mentor was like "You must be firm, don't let this kind of people ruin your confidence. I will be here". Awwwwww. Really...thank you.

I have learnt many things from my mentor as well as from the others even though I am only there for a few days. Some of them are really friendly and helpful. However, I still think I am not suitable for the job so I have decided to resign. I want to thank my mentor for spending her precious time teaching me all the things and helping me whenever I need help. I am also sorry because I am so forgetful and even after so many days I am still unable to do things on my own. Sigh..I am stupid like that. I can never do things well.... :(

Oh before I forget, one thing that makes me super angry...I emailed the agency but that person did not reply me at all. So I decided to make a call to ask whether she received my email and she was like "I did". Since you received my email, you should reply me lah wtf. Is this a joke? HA HA HA. So irresponsible. I have no idea why you can get hired. Pfftt.

I don't know how to end this blog post, this is so awkward lol. Bye!